I’ve got this weird, briefly-obsessive personality. By “briefly-obsessive,” I mean that I get really into things for very short periods of time, then walk away from them.
For example, in recent years I have taken up (and put down):
- Fantasy football
- Bass guitar
- Balloon animals
- Crossword puzzles
among other things. And I don’t just casually take up a hobby- I dive in head first. I spend money. I buy books. I google everything about it and stare at websites. It’s ridiculous. I did this with this blog, too. If you were to go back and look at my posts, you can kinda see it happening. It started off with a couple of posts a week, but before long I was posting every day. I got obsessed.
I joined a forum to talk to other bloggers about blogging. I downloaded a blogging app on my phone so I could constantly check my traffic. There were days that I felt really good about myself because lots of people came by and left comments. Unfortunately, the opposite was true sometimes, too- there were days that I let my self-esteem take a hit because not many people looked at my blog.
That’s just dumb.
Luckily, July has been a really busy month. We’re having a baby next month, lots of activities at the church, lots of stuff to do around the house. It’s been good for me to forget about BDB for a while.
I still love it, and I’m gonna get back to blogging on a regular basis, but I gotta be careful not to let it consume me the way it was starting to do.
When I type all this out, I realize how silly it seems. But if you’re a “serious” blogger, I know you can relate. I know what you/we talk about. “How do I get my traffic up? How do I improve my SEO? More? Bigger? Lots?” So, I quit for a while.
I’ve got some posts planned for next week. I promise to start blogging again if you’ll promise to remind me every once in a while not to do it too much. Deal? Deal.
Have you ever let something benign become destructive?